If you had peeped into my bedroom this morning at 8, you would have thought – look at that lazy thing, tucked up under the duvet doing nothing. You would have, in fact, been dead wrong. Oh yes – to a casual observer it would seem that I was lying very snug and still, but what you would never have guessed is that my mind was rolling Chapter 6 around, figuring out the best way forward for my characters.
I’ve realized my eldest kiddo employs the same strategy in the mornings before school. She’ll eat breakfast, then have a five minute lie-in under the duvet. This used to drive me insane. I’d resist the urge – oh alright, I didn’t really try – to yell at her to get moving you’re going to be late! Then one morning, the lights went on. She began rolling her eyes up, the way she does when she’s thinking, quietly counting on her fingers… I listened really carefully. She was not singing the latest Adele song, she was in fact going through what waited for her that day. She was planning – not dozing. Outside? Dozing. Inside? Planning! Wow.
Turns out whoever said that you can’t judge a book by its cover, was telling truth.
This got me thinking. What about life? Has your life ever looked like someone took a giant blender through the middle of it and laughed at the chaos? I know mine has. If you look on the surface, there is every reason to stop the train and demand a refund. But! In those times of trouble, you have no idea what is being established inside of you through the very things you would choose to avoid.
I have a sneaky feeling that if we choose to live by what we see with our eyes, if we let the externals dictate to us – we’ll live lives that fall far short of what we’ve been created for…