On being grown up and not getting swallowed…

It’s time for me to face facts.

I’m desperately keen to dive in and lose myself in the world of ‘Finding Amy’, (my second novel for those who may not be following my compelling *snigger* saga.) The brutal truth is… I have two other projects that I need to finish first. Its a simple dinner before pud’s equation.

The December holidays lulled me into a false sense of possibility that had me thinking I could keep all these things moving forward at a respectable speed, while maintaining a semblance of order at home / work / family… Surely somehow I could make it all happen through sheer willpower. Reality is sniggering at me even as I type those words. I’m slowly realizing, it simply isn’t possible without losing something or someone along the way.

Time to plot a new course. All this really means is that ‘FA’ goes on hold until my two projects are complete – talk about a tantalizing carrot! If I’m honest, the part that scares me about tackling my writing priorities like this, is that I can’t help wondering if I’ll have another year of going pudding-less.  There, I’ve said it. My worst fear. I want to write books more than anything else. BUT I also need to make the most of every opportunity that presents itself. And quite frankly, to be commissioned to write is a privilege that I don’t take lightly.

So – I’m going to finish my two projects, and finish them well. THEN I’m going to trust Him who called me to write, the One who built it into every fibre of my being – to dish up my pudding afterwards.

You see, those crazy kids? They are mine. They need my time and attention. What use would it be if I wrote books that moved the hearts of millions, but lost my own girls in the process?

There’s not much more to be said, is there? 🙂

Advertisements

8 thoughts on “On being grown up and not getting swallowed…

  1. You know what I love about this post? The sliver lining. I have a thing for silver linings. What I’m going to do is repeat what you said up top…

    “So – I’m going to finish my two projects, and finish them well. THEN I’m going to trust Him who called me to write, the One who built it into every fibre of my being – to dish up my pudding afterwards.”

    …in solidarity with you 🙂

  2. This is exactly why I kept putting my writing aside as I did not know how to balance it all at the time. I chose my family. They’re grown up now with babies of their own and I’m writing again. You seem smart and energetic to me. I just know you’ll find a way to keep the balance of home–work–writing–and living. The ONE who gave you the gift of writing will help you get it accomplished. 🙂 Onward!!

  3. difficult setting priorities…the greatest thing about opportunities – it it’s something that’s supposed to happen, it will come around again if you pass on it the first time…and sometimes you are better prepared to handle it the next time around….sort of like migrating birds…. love the kid pix – they grow up really fast – and you’ll have lots of time then…

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s