It’s time for me to face facts.
I’m desperately keen to dive in and lose myself in the world of ‘Finding Amy’, (my second novel for those who may not be following my compelling *snigger* saga.) The brutal truth is… I have two other projects that I need to finish first. Its a simple dinner before pud’s equation.
The December holidays lulled me into a false sense of possibility that had me thinking I could keep all these things moving forward at a respectable speed, while maintaining a semblance of order at home / work / family… Surely somehow I could make it all happen through sheer willpower. Reality is sniggering at me even as I type those words. I’m slowly realizing, it simply isn’t possible without losing something or someone along the way.
Time to plot a new course. All this really means is that ‘FA’ goes on hold until my two projects are complete – talk about a tantalizing carrot! If I’m honest, the part that scares me about tackling my writing priorities like this, is that I can’t help wondering if I’ll have another year of going pudding-less. There, I’ve said it. My worst fear. I want to write books more than anything else. BUT I also need to make the most of every opportunity that presents itself. And quite frankly, to be commissioned to write is a privilege that I don’t take lightly.
So – I’m going to finish my two projects, and finish them well. THEN I’m going to trust Him who called me to write, the One who built it into every fibre of my being – to dish up my pudding afterwards.
You see, those crazy kids? They are mine. They need my time and attention. What use would it be if I wrote books that moved the hearts of millions, but lost my own girls in the process?
There’s not much more to be said, is there? 🙂